My Captain

11/09/23- I had to tell Meg’s last night. She asked me point blank. We are a team and its my responsibility to let my captain in on everything I’m feeling. In a weird way it released a lot of pressure within me. I feel better. Now I feel like I’m questioning myself. It’s never fucking easy. Give me a win. Give me give me give me. I’ve become selfish. I expect everything to be given to me and it has created stress and anxiety within me. What is normal stress and anxiety. I need a base level.

What the fuck is normal. I’m spiraling.

Meg’s encourages my thought’s of calling the Shaw Center to turn into action. It’s good. They take my situation very seriously and get me on the schedule with NP Jordan for the following day. Tensions are eased. We will be able to voice our concerns and hopefully get re-insurance of a clean bill of health.