Positive Intent

1.2.23- I forgot the lidocaine. I brought it out of my bathroom, put it on the kitchen counter but it never made it into my Chemo bag. Nobody to blame but myself. Megs wouldn’t have let me forget the lidocaine. She wouldn’t have let me take a walk prior to Chemo but she definitely would not have let me forget the lidocaine. It’s time. I need Megs to go back to total control. I need to be able to space out and just be dragged around to my appointments and have quiet days resting at home. I’m not ready to give control of my days off up, but it is time to rest and zone out and have Megs regain power. I need her to check my work. I’m ready to have my Captain back. It’s important when coming to help out that you create less work for the people that you are helping. We are NOT here to HOST. Everyone says, “let us help.” Well look around and fucking help. Fill-in the blanks. See where we need help and just fucking do it. It creates more work for us when you ask constantly what you can do to help. Just show effort. Or get the fuck out of the way TBH. It was beneficial for the first week of treatment but we need to take back over. We need to go back to a normal life. It’s time.  

I hiked up to Central Park at Copper yesterday. Caught the last few laps of the boys hitting the BIG HOGS. Caught a few good photos but it went quick. The boys were appreciative and I don’t want to blow them up or make them feel like they need to repost, I just want to give credit. There was another group of rippers who were kind of chirping me and skrrting from the features that I was shooting at. I mean I can’t control people but I’m just trying to get clips for them. Or am I selfishly just trying to get clips of them. I don’t know I just love snowboarding and I’m trying to capture it and create positivity in the community. I’m really not trying to take advantage of these rippers I’m just trying to create the best portrayal of the madness that is happening. It’s funny like I’ll give credit to a pro and they always say thanks for the shot and sometimes repost, which I truly am not doing it for, but this is a positive outcome. When I shoot some of these like “hardcore” shredders, who have incredible skills, but they’re just hobbyists they are always looking for more. “Why didn’t you get my back 3 tuck knee.” “Can you send me my cab 2 over the rainbow.” It’s like listen fucking Drysen or Grayden or whatever your soft ass name is, I just skinned up to the park with two backpacks and shot 1867 photos across ten different features. I apologize that I can’t locate your clip or the fact that you did the same trick as the last four dudes and they all look the same so I posted the one I thought caught the eye most. Selfishly, after hiking my ass up to the park and the jumps, and setting up tri-pods to get sequences of long ass rails, I just want to create my own magic. Buy me a fucking pass and I’ll follow-cam you like 3 runs a day, or FUCK RIGHT OFF. I believe that this is a good way to create positivity and GIVE BACK to the lifestyle that has given so much to me. So Dreardon, try giving back or just being thankful and receptive of the clips I migfht snipe. Or don’t, it’s your life. But do not hate on what I’m doing because it comes with positive intent.