Upside Down

11.24.2023 – Black Friday; It’s funny, it sounds so badass when I think in my head that I’m not going to do treatment. Like I’m too tough or not tough enough to take that experience again. But your whole fucking world gets turned upside down when your told that treatment has a very low cure rate no matter what. The prior situation is like that punk kid talking shit about wanting to beat somebody’s ass but secretly knowing that they will never have to stand behind those words. Like it’s cool when it’s in my head and I believe that I could choose to not try to save myself from this evil woman. But when it comes to light that treatment is not a black & white cure scenario it really shakes you. I haven’t been scared in the past. I’m scared now. The Reaper is creeping. Her grip is gaining.

It's hard to be so far from family. This is such an unexpected situation and there’s been so many unforeseen turns, but its still hard to be far away from family. I’ve spoken to most of my family. My blood brother still hasn’t accepted any of my calls or texts but hopefully soon. Mr. sympathy Devens reached out to bullshit. It means the World. He’s going through a lot. Dena, Megs’ mum says, “It takes a lot of courage to stay together but it takes a lot of courage to get divorced too.” Or something like that. It’s hard. Everybody I’ve ran into lately is having a time. My absolute day one homie Georgie Ogden is giving his parents a time. I ran into his mum Meg and she just gave me a run-down. I’m here to support her but HE’S ME. I’ve always known it. The way he interacted with kids in our snowboard groups. We’re so similar. He takes things to the next level. Excels. When done in a positive situation it can be so good; But when done in a negative situation like with drugs, alcohol, other vices, can really spiral quickly. I love the Ogdens. They will get through this. Georgie is advanced. A smartass but reads the room well. Going shredding with Reider early. Psyched. Pow day. Like the day G was born.